Venting again :/

OVER 10000 PAGE VIEWS WOOOO that's awesome!! :D

Also changed my blog to something a little more simple and me. The background and color scheme is more like me than anything lol

Anyways, so I feel like venting and since I have practically no one to vent to (cause if I do I'll feel guilty for bringing my problems on to them) I'll just write it here. This is what blogs are for right? I hope so cause I do this a lot...
I feel like I'm not allowed to do anything I like, my only rl friend makes me feel bad and I hate it. She thinks I'm weird for liking yaoi and manga (yaoi and normal), she thinks I'm obsessed but I'm not. I'm not an obsessive person, I've always liked anime stuff and bxb I just never went out and looked for something to read/watch aside from death note and the occasional tv show. And then everything I like she puts me down about it. Here look at this song its really funny! (It was amazing horse) It's annoying. *tells joke* that's not really funny. *talks about something I read on a manga* I think you need to stop, you're a little obsessed.
I don't know maybe shes right, but is reading a manga every once in a while so bad? Talking about something funny to try and make her laugh, is it not right? I do everything just to get a laugh out of people even if it makes me seem like an idiot but...I dunno this seems different. No one really supports me here, even though she and my mom say they do it seems like they don't. My mom doesn't understand how I can read/write bxb stories because I'm not a boy, so she thinks I'm wasting my talent and as for my friend. Yeah well, she just plain thinks I'm weird. I have no other word to put it, it's almost like shes disgusted in me but shes not homophobic in the least. I just don't understand...I do all this shit for people and I get fucked over all the time. It's like I'm not worth being nice to most times. Eh I'll just stop, there's not point in worrying about it I guess. I'll just keep doing what I like and if I become an actual loner so be it.

Sorry, I needed to get this out.